2nd day of Asia Conference 2008
Pastor Ulf was awesome, and extremely joyful, his joy is almost infectious, like an aura of joy that seems to spread to any one who can see and hear him.
got home past midnight (12.07am to be exact, i checked as soon as i stepped tru the door)
had a little "talk" with my mom.
so after tht i looked tru some people's blogs and thought "wow, EVERYONE has family problems!"
one story was actually pretty similar to mine, one parent insulting God and christianity and questioning my faith in God. Cept her story had 1 significant diff - her mother stood up for her when her dad was putting her down.
In my case, my mom is against christianity, and my dad ALSO puts me down, its his nature, dunno whats up with it, but he just looooooooooooooves putting people down. my mother even mentioned it in one of their quarrels.
something like "u always have to put down the people around u to make urself feel better"
my dad isnt anti-christ tho. my brother is a very sarcastic person, i do my best to try not to be infected by his sarcasm (the 3rd lowest form of wit). but i guess my brother isnt that bad, i mean no ones perfect right. he probably isnt sarcastic on purpose (i think?). he just talks that way. i just tahan all the way manz.
guess my parents arent that bad too, if they didnt care for me they wouldn't even bother giving me cash or nagging at me every day. Yeh thats the way, see the good stuff. See the opportunities in the difficulties etc etc etc.
U hafta admit their nagging is annoying tho, like when they call u up, ask u where are u, what u doing, what time coming home, makan already anot, blah blah blah. den u just feel like hanging up on them because they seem to be telling u stuff that u already KNOW. but wow, jack neo spoke about it yesterday and said something we all really do know, that its just love. we already knew it, the love has always been there, we just fail to realise it because its so normal, so ordinary that it doesnt seem like an exception from the norm.
"Parental Objection". i guess every one who's a christian probably knows what it means eh.
most people in CHC call it "P.O".
Went to a christian primary school, mom told me once in a while to "never become a christian".
Put "buddhist" as my religion so that they won't "convert" me into a christian.
did i obey? of course i obey lah. i put buddhist as my religion, and lived on as a freethinker.
then on that day, was the end of june. Sentosa outreach by the WYZ zone of CHC. i was going.
Miss Lim Xin Ying ask me go service with her first.
Super reluctant to go, in the end go.
Service was at expo. See the service was thinking "wah not so bad leh church"
i stand there like 1 kuku liddat just see in front. All praying in tongues i just diam diam.
NEXT WEEK, i still remember the day, cause easy to remember.
was 5/7/8, 5th july 2008. i accepted christ into my life babe~
after that i've become happier for sure.
but to be honest, when i first accepted christ, i wasnt so sure if i really believed at first.
i still went to church tho. i gave myself an excuse of "i learn a lot of lessons there" (which is true by the way, i DO lean a lot of lessons there).
omigosh how long is this post. oh well whatever.
Sooooooo... slowly i began to have more faith and believed more. and i'm here today with much more room for improvement. hope i can join choir ministry soon, been waiting for weeks.
So yeh i guess i wanna thank Xin Ying for bringing me to church, that was awesome of you, still don't know why there was a period of time u were angry with me, left me pretty clueless there.
to be honest its one of the reasons i transferred from jurong west to expo.
but i guess i put that behind me already, doesnt matter any more.
i like expo more in a way i guess. the people who attend expo services are less enthusiastic but at least expo doesnt require a 1 hour train ride by myself. -.-
btw, expo service is less enthu because there are more adults there. i guess the adults got the better of the youths and made them a little stiff. NEVER FEAR! I SHALL NOT BE AFFECTED! PRAISE THE LORD! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
being forward looking, positive thinking and enthusiastic = important.
IN CLOSING/SUMMARY:
+ appreciate your parents (unless your parents taught u how to smoke, drink and take drugs, then i have nth to say)
+ try to tahan their nagging and remember that its care and concern
+ Forgive and Forget
+ See the good stuff, even in bad situations.
+ Super tired cos of Asia Conf
+ 2.20am now, waking up 8am.
+ Goodbye and have a blessed weekend.
